Girlfriend weekend coming up for me and I’m super excited. Haven’t had a vacation since July of last year and I am READY!! We are headed to a resort in North Texas.
I found it curious though, when planning what to pack for this weekend, I was stressing out a lot. I’m a minimalist packer, so I don’t usually fall victim to taking too much stuff, but I was really freaking out about what I’ll wear.
Click here to read my post on Minimalist Packing.
Another thing that is hampering me, is we really don’t know what we will be doing. The weather is unpredictable per usual for Texas. We talked about some specific things to do, but haven’t settled on any of them.
Really wishing now, I would have taken my own advice from this post. Guidelines for a Perfect Girls Trip
But if I’m being honest, the biggest reason for the freak out is my weight. I’m probably at the heaviest I’ve ever been. Not fun, but I’m working on it. Progress is WAY too slow, but every little bit counts.
I have very few items that really fit well. You’d think this would make my packing easier, but not so. In addition I’m really anxious about being in a swimsuit. I have two. Both of which I tried on last night and neither one fits.
Just thinking about swimsuit shopping started to overwhelm me. I’ll need one that covers as much as possible and a cover up to hide myself in the swimsuit. I don’t want to be a Debbie Downer and just sit on the shore or by the swimming pool and watch everyone else play around in the water.
Then I remembered the empowerment I felt when I fully embraced my big legs for my trip to New Orleans. I wore short dresses because it was fricking hot and just used some self tanner a few days before and I… was…fine! Had a great time, never even thought about what I looked like or what other people thought about me.
Plus, these are my friends. I’m pretty sure they couldn’t care less what I look like in a swimsuit and some of them probably have the same anxieties or even different ones.
So I scraped buying a cover up, broke out the self tanner, and I am not going to waste one more minute fretting over a damn swimsuit. I’ll find some cheap, black beauty at Walmart and call it a day.
Now, should I take a jacket or no?
P.S. My daughter suggested I try on a swimsuit I would have never picked out on my own. I tried it on and the material is super supportive. So I didn’t settle for black after all. 🙂